The Mid-April Update!

I just wanna post something new! So here's a few bullet points on whats been up with me!

• I am back at Somerville Media Center, making some shows again and doing fun stuff with da youths! I taught some kids how to fly a DJI Mini 3 drone the other day, and it was exciting for all of us to see the possibilities for new cinematography and techniques!
• I have been hitting the gym 6x a week, doing a decent split of weightlifting first, some cardio after and steamroom/sauna after.
  • The sauna has become "Therapy Time" for my DID system, because we are usually sitting there with nothing to distract us, so its either meditation or talking about who is doing what, internally, that is blocking me (Nic) from functioning in the world. I've been making great progress clearing out dissociation this way, healing alters/parts!
• Been using my under-desk treadmill a lot more!
• My lilac bush in front of my house is finally starting to bloom, and its my favorite time of year for the garden out front! All the beautiful flowers begin to show, and even though it doesn't last as long as I would love, the lilacs in particular gather all the neighbors around, and its a wonderful way to meet people!
  • This is why I named my political party project the Lilac Party. Its just a nice bush in front of my house, that's it. And everyone can come up to it, enjoy the flowers, even take one home! Provided there's enough for everyone, and no one damages the bush or surrounding plants, I have never had a problem with it. I feel like its just a nice thing, and its the way things should be!
• I have been at 30mg Adderall for about 2 months now, and its been weird? I feel like I am more aware of everything around me. It feels like my floors are going to cave in anytime I walk over them. I feel slight shifts in elevation in any building I enter. I hear my ears ringing more often, which I attribute to a heightened awareness, since I swear this was just something that's been around awhile lol. I feel pains in my body, on the lower right side of my belly and the right of my belly button, and I want to look up details online, but I know my hypochondria will overload me, so I keep away. As I've healed from my dissociation, I can stop panicking about "What if" scenarios about tumors or cancer, and be realistic: my tummy hurts cuz I eat poorly. So I've been working on that.
• My diet is now mostly chicken thighs, brown rice (sometimes congee with chicken broth & veggies), broccoli and green smoothies. Here is my typical green smoothie recipe:
  • 1 handful tri-greens mix from Costco
  • 1 handful kale
  • 1 scoop 50-in-1 vegetable powder
  • 1 scoop protein powder
  • 1 scoop (tiny) creatine
  • Occasionally a handful-worth of frozen fruit
  • 4 cups Bigelow lemon ginger tea.
    • Mix together for a minute or so and drink slowly. Don't chug it. Chew the green smoothie to mix it with some saliva, and take your time drinking it.

As you can see, its pretty imprecise, but I make it the same way every day. This is the gist of it lol.

• A good friend of mine had bloodwork done, and his doctors discovered a tumor growing on his liver. It was caught early enough, and his boyfriend and I hung out with him at MGH. He was under for about 3.5 hours, where 6 incisions were made into his abdominal wall (which was apparently so muscular and thick they had to use more anestehesia!), and the tumor was successfully removed! So I am very thankful for the surgeons and doctors who saved my friends life, particularly at MGH who preformed the surgery!
  • The tumor analysis showed it was Stage 1 cancer, and it looks very unlikely it spread beyond that point. He's been recovering, and is just getting back to the gym today after a month or so of bedrest!
• My fathers prostate cancer is also showing very good signs of healing! His PSA dropped from a high of 9.4 (bad for him) to 0.4 (REALLY good!), and now 3 months later he is at 0.06 PSA. "Undetectable" is 0.03, and if he can sustain that level (which is likely), its seen as a very good sign that his treatments are working!
  • He's been going to the gym with me in the mornings, and its been wonderful to train him and have a good partner with me for my workouts! And he's been putting on a little bit of muscle, himself! So all in all, very good UwU!
• My Bluesky started up, and quickly swallowed up my life lmao! I have been reticent to speculate, but after I posted this sites URL in my bio on there, I saw "queries" in my bunny.net log go from 1k a week to 20k a week, many of which came from a diverse set of countries! So to anyone who came to this site within the past month, thank you all for visiting! I will have more stuff up as I go, and I appreciate your interest!
  • I will add: I am doing my best not to like and repost literally everything I come across haha! This is why I got rid of Twitter all those years ago. I do not feel that same addictive pull, however, and I think keeping my account to my own personal and professional stuff wouldn't be a bad thing going forward UwU! So I will likely be deleting all my likes and reposts, because I am ashamed at how spammy I might be for my followers! I'M SOWWY!!!!

Despite everything, life is good UwU! Hope you are all doing well!