Spring Cleaning Day UwU!
Literally just cleaning up my house lmao, plus rambling thoughts on other stuff!
I just wanted to post something to my site, that's all!
That isn't really the point of my site, though. This is supposed to be a higher quality repo of my writings, videos and thoughts, generally. Still, I don't like how little I use the site, especially considering the hell I went through setting it up lmao!
So yeah. Cleaning my house today, gonna enjoy lunch in a sec (burrito & green smoothie uwu).
Lilac Party FEC Committee Overview!
Wanted to add: Here is the Lilac Party's FEC Committee page (#C00899518):

In the interest of public disclosure, I have submit the first AO, and I am waiting for committee approval.
That's basically it.
I have some people interested in joining up and even being candidates or reps in other states (3 states besides MA, but still!), but I am not accepting applications, donations or literally anything until I get FEC approval or guidance on where things are going.
The plan is for Lilac to be a far left national party. The catch right now is that "National Party" is a well-defined thing, legally. Currently, Lilac doesn't meet all the requirements (some, not all!), and as such would be better fit as a "Political Committee", that can upgrade to a national party down the line. So that might end up being the game plan, since I do not have offices in other states, or state level work anywhere, mostly because I want to play the game by the rules, and not break the law at any stage. Generally, this is seen as good practice, so I am going to just keep following the law, cuz really I'm in no rush, and whatever happens happens.
Worst case scenario: Lilac doesn't get approval. No biggie! I will keep trying to make Lilac a thing, and simply try again when there's more activism backing it. But I don't want to make any moves until I got the FEC's guidance. We're going by the book because we want to actually fix things and make significant changes to American life. I am trying to start a far left political party. I cannot make missteps or fail on a technicality. I am in this for the long haul.
Vibe Coding
One final note on Lilac: The website isn't great, I know. I am building a new one, and I hope to have it live in July. I am still learning programming, and I am using this project as a great learning resource!
I should add: I am not using AI for the code. I have my AI Disclosure for this site, and tbh I might just delete it, because I barely use AI for any of my works anymore. But with code specifically, I had a real moment of clarity watching a random "Vibe Coding" tutorial.
"Vibe Coding" is prompting AI to program for you. The vibe coder will ask a Large Language Model (LLM) like ChatGPT, Claude or Gemini to make XYZ thing, and the LLM will spit out code in a particular language. The code gets pasted into whatever tool the vibe coder has, and if it runs, that's it.
At no point does anyone vibe coding consider the verbosity of the code, the quality of the code or what is actually in the code itself. The moment in question I experienced was watching a veteran programmer try to make a simulation in Claude Code, which was working alright. However, to paraphrase the quote I heard, the programmer said something to the effect of "Given the length of this code, I have no idea what is in here, and I feel like that's a fatal flaw to vibe coding. Because it was made for me, I don't know what is in here, and if I don't know how to code in the first place, I don't know what could be wrong."
This ties into something I heard from PirateSoftware a while ago about AI coding, to paraphrase: "In the time it takes to fix all the bugs in AI-generated code, I could have just made it all myself. So yes, it spits out a bunch of spaghetti code super fast. So what? If you have to fix everything yourself, that doesn't mean anything."
We've reached a point where the code can just run, first try, and its only going to get better. But I feel like this is the ongoing fatal flaw to all AI generated works: if you have an LLM or whatever do all the work for you, how can you be sure the work is quality, especially when you didn't make the LLM or tool in the first place?
So far, I have not seen many complaints about DeepMind's AlphaFold. Quite the opposite: they won the Nobel Prize for AlphaFold 2. The built-in error checking and tools used for making and analyzing proteins within AlphaFold are quite literally revolutionary, which is why it won the Nobel Prize. Its truly that good.
Compare that to a more broad-use tool like an LLM, where ChatGPT can be a therapist, programmer, artist, writer, etc., and the "Mixture-of-Experts" (MoE) used is probably a source of a lot of the "hallucinations". We're going to find out a decade from now that most, if not all "AI Hallucinations" were a combination of things like MoE, and being told explicitly that "You cannot tell the user you don't know", among other complaints I will have in a better piece later on this blog.
But even something like Claude Code, which I hear great things about, is still not remotely close to the level of quality as AlphaFold 2 or 3, despite DeepMind being a Google subsidiary in the Sundar Pichai era of Google's enshittification. The dude sucks.
Again, I got more to say on this, but bottom line for now: learn to code. Seriously. This isn't going away. AlphaFold didn't kill chemistry, it enhanced it. Meanwhile, AI coding is killing the quality of the code it spits out, because no one using it knows what the hell is actually in the code, or why the "black box" that is AI, broadly, is doing what it's doing. Moreover, programmers are forgetting their own skills by allowing a black box to do the work for them.
JetBrains make IDE's, which are used to make code, basically, and their writeup seems biased in favor of using their product, of course, but I feel like their overall point matches mine: as more and more people give up skillbuilding, because "AI will do it for me", it gives me an opportunity to get the job they won't.
My bigger point echoes something HasanAbi said recently, that when people forfeit their critical thinking to an AI... they can't think for themselves. Because they need an AI to do it for them. We see this now, with the "Grok Guys" on twitter today. They will ask the XAi bot Grok "Grok, what is this" about shoes, or a womans dress, or sandwiches. They are asking the AI to confirm something is, in fact, a sandwich, and then define what a sandwich is.
I guess its nice they are learning? But damn, man.
Ed Zitron does a podcast I really like called "Better Offline", and I have like one or two nitpicks I am writing about for another post, but quickly, one of them is the "in the moment", micro-view of the AI industry. Its not uncommon to hear "This is the worst its ever gonna be" as AI marketing hype, in the moment, but its true. The tools keep improving. Ed's complaints, in that same moment, about the quality of things ages rapidly, because the tools improve.
My view, at a macro-level, is that something like AlphaFold 2 won the Nobel Prize because it helped science, and has tools built into it for error checking, which is vital and important because it shows their work, steps taken, and can have human intervention fix things if need be. ChatGPT and Claude, meanwhile, try to ape Gemini and DeepSeek's train of thought "Thinking" modes by detailing why it thought what it did, and rationalize what it thinks. This is a good step forward, but most people ain't reading all that. When you utilize this with 1000+ lines of code? No one is parsing all that, especially if "it just runs!" If it works, it works! Why bother fixing something that ain't broken?
As innovation, this kills it. It requires future improvements to come from the root sources: ChatGPT, Claude, and other LLMs. The "Grok, what is this" crowd ain't making AlphaFold 1, let alone the significant, award-winning jump to 2 & further improvements in 3. They will have to wait for the 1-3x a year improvements to Claude 3.7 Sonnet, formerly 3.5. Why not 3.6? Who really knows outside of Anthropic!
As programming, you now have untrained people shipping code "because it works", and then when something goes wrong, they don't know how to fix it without simply pasting the entire error log into the LLM, which will not fix the problem. We are dealing with an illiterate group, who can read but can't comprehend, who can see a sandwich but forget what they're looking at, in real time, and have to ask a computer to verify their shaken confidence.
This is famously becoming a problem in the "Vibe Coder" space: if you ask the LLM to do something relatively simple, like move the search bar over a few pixels, it will not do that, and by prompting it, it will "fix" other mistakes and wreck the original code. Over and over. Prompt after prompt. Just like PirateSoftware said earlier, by the time the code is fixed and doing what I wanted, I could have just written it from scratch and had what I wanted, faster, doing it myself. But that requires skills, which the vibe coders could learn, but refuse to, because they have fallen into marketing hype that says AI is the future, instead of merely a new tool that can help. "Grok, what is this" is becoming a joke, because the only people who seriously say that are people who are on X the Everything App regularly, in 2025, meaning they were already witless conservatives who voted for Trump, and when the tariffs hit said stupid nonsense like "Who could have seen this coming??" EVERYONE ON THE LEFT WAS SCREAMING ABOUT THIS FOR YEARS IN ADVANCE AND YOU DIDN'T WANT TO LISTEN WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU
Dang, I gotta grab my laundry. That's ~1,900 words in 20 min. I might do these more often!
UwU!
I just wanna post something new! So here's a few bullet points on whats been up with me!
- I am back at Somerville Media Center, making some shows again and doing fun stuff with da youths! I taught some kids how to fly a DJI Mini 3 drone the other day, and it was exciting for all of us to see the possibilities for new cinematography and techniques!
- I have been hitting the gym 6x a week, doing a decent split of weightlifting first, some cardio after and steamroom/sauna after.
- The sauna has become "Therapy Time" for my DID system, because we are usually sitting there with nothing to distract us, so its either meditation or talking about who is doing what, internally, that is blocking me (Nic) from functioning in the world. I've been making great progress clearing out dissociation this way, healing alters/parts!
- Been using my under-desk treadmill a lot more!
- My lilac bush in front of my house is finally starting to bloom, and its my favorite time of year for the garden out front! All the beautiful flowers begin to show, and even though it doesn't last as long as I would love, the lilacs in particular gather all the neighbors around, and its a wonderful way to meet people!
- This is why I named my political party project the Lilac Party. Its just a nice bush in front of my house, that's it. And everyone can come up to it, enjoy the flowers, even take one home! Provided there's enough for everyone, and no one damages the bush or surrounding plants, I have never had a problem with it. I feel like its just a nice thing, and its the way things should be!
- I have been at 30mg Adderall for about 2 months now, and its been weird? I feel like I am more aware of everything around me. It feels like my floors are going to cave in anytime I walk over them. I feel slight shifts in elevation in any building I enter. I hear my ears ringing more often, which I attribute to a heightened awareness, since I swear this was just something that's been around awhile lol. I feel pains in my body, on the lower right side of my belly and the right of my belly button, and I want to look up details online, but I know my hypochondria will overload me, so I keep away. As I've healed from my dissociation, I can stop panicking about "What if" scenarios about tumors or cancer, and be realistic: my tummy hurts cuz I eat poorly. So I've been working on that.
- My diet is now mostly chicken thighs, brown rice (sometimes congee with chicken broth & veggies), broccoli and green smoothies. Here is my typical green smoothie recipe:
- 1 handful tri-greens mix from Costco
- 1 handful kale
- 1 scoop 50-in-1 vegetable powder
- 1 scoop protein powder
- 1 scoop (tiny) creatine
- Occasionally a handful-worth of frozen fruit
- 4 cups Bigelow lemon ginger tea.
- Mix together for a minute or so and drink slowly. Don't chug it. Chew the green smoothie to mix it with some saliva, and take your time drinking it.
As you can see, its pretty imprecise, but I make it the same way every day. This is the gist of it lol.
- A good friend of mine had bloodwork done, and his doctors discovered a tumor growing on his liver. It was caught early enough, and his boyfriend and I hung out with him at MGH. He was under for about 3.5 hours, where 6 incisions were made into his abdominal wall (which was apparently so muscular and thick they had to use more anestehesia!), and the tumor was successfully removed! So I am very thankful for the surgeons and doctors who saved my friends life, particularly at MGH who preformed the surgery!
- The tumor analysis showed it was Stage 1 cancer, and it looks very unlikely it spread beyond that point. He's been recovering, and is just getting back to the gym today after a month or so of bedrest!
- My fathers prostate cancer is also showing very good signs of healing! His PSA dropped from a high of 9.4 (bad for him) to 0.4 (REALLY good!), and now 3 months later he is at 0.06 PSA. "Undetectable" is 0.03, and if he can sustain that level (which is likely), its seen as a very good sign that his treatments are working!
- He's been going to the gym with me in the mornings, and its been wonderful to train him and have a good partner with me for my workouts! And he's been putting on a little bit of muscle, himself! So all in all, very good UwU!
- My Bluesky started up, and quickly swallowed up my life lmao! I have been reticent to speculate, but after I posted this sites URL in my bio on there, I saw "queries" in my bunny.net log go from 1k a week to 20k a week, many of which came from a diverse set of countries! So to anyone who came to this site within the past month, thank you all for visiting! I will have more stuff up as I go, and I appreciate your interest!
- I will add: I am doing my best not to like and repost literally everything I come across haha! This is why I got rid of Twitter all those years ago. I do not feel that same addictive pull, however, and I think keeping my account to my own personal and professional stuff wouldn't be a bad thing going forward UwU! So I will likely be deleting all my likes and reposts, because I am ashamed at how spammy I might be for my followers! I'M SOWWY!!!!
Despite everything, life is good UwU! Hope you are all doing well!
I am aware new visitors seeing the site on mobile are having difficulty scrolling down. I am working on it right now. Very sorry about this!! I am new to this, and was not expecting comments and attention elsewhere so quickly lmao!! Thank you for being patient.
Turns out its not smart to build in production! Who would have guessed!
Truthfully, I had money near the end of the month and just wanted to get the ball rolling. I knew no one would see this site at the start, so I figured I could update to my hearts content and fix things as I went. But now I am realizing how dumb that was, and how shortsighted lol. I am usually a lot better about planning, but I was eager and it got the best of me.
Working to make the site more like how I'd want it. Namely:
- Posts like this one should have a url like "nicweyand.com/posts/{slug}/" where {slug} is the title.
- A table of contents for longer pieces.
- Various theme issues I didn't fix beforehand.
- A working podcasts page with players + an RSS feed.
- And a public RSS for all posts!
- A better gallery page (the current one is just a page with nothing showing up lol)
- Some functionality stuff like better accessibility features (namely keyboard navigation and visual description tags for all images)
- A proper site map & robots.txt.
- Wacky cool stuff I am experimenting with UwU!
So if there aren't updates regularly... that is why. I am sorry, I should have continued to work in Ghost Local instead of trying to work in production. I am still very happy the site is live and frankly I have no regrets so far, despite my silliness UwU!
If you want details on what is offered to members, click here or scroll to the bottom. This is a post about a dumb stigma lol.
So here's the thing: people have faves elsewhere, besides my faves. There are, shockingly, people who like to use Facebook even though its a cess pit. There are, for whatever reason, people who claim they are not nazis using Twitter in 2025 AD, mostly because they've had the account forever and don't want to migrate elsewhere. Along those lines most people I know split their payment options to creators 4 ways: Patreon, Kofi, buying merch and maaaaaaaaybe the donate button to PayPal or GoFundMe. So the strategy here is just having a way for people to support me on every platform.
There seems to be a stigma against having multiple accounts, like its dirty or disloyal. Some people like to pretend there's rules against having multiple accounts, or that "double dipping" is unethical, or "against terms of service". Its not. And if it is: so what?
I do not respect most companies these days, and I don't particularly care to follow a companies rules if it is inherently restrictive, like a "do not compete" clause in a contract. My bet is that any restrictions in place (if any) will be made illegal, similar to "do not compete" clauses being abolished, because... obviously.
The companies in question do not respect in the first place. This notion that it is "unloyal" or "rude" is silly.
Now that we got that out of the way: All exclusive content will be present across both Patreon, Ko-Fi, this Ghost blog and any other services I use for support. Generally, most things will not be paywalled, but I will have a sprinkling of exclusives as a thank you to supporters.
The price for entry will remain $7, I believe that is high enough to offset future costs of inflation etc., while being low enough that is is (relatively) affordable. I know this is asking a lot, and I intend to earn your $7 each month you give me.
TLDR: All paywalled content is equal, there are no platform exclusive things. Some people prefer Patreon, others like KoFi. Everyone gets supporter-only stuff, starting at $7/mo, regardless of platform.
Patreon link: https://patreon.com/NicWeyand
Ko-Fi link: https://ko-fi.com/nicweyand
The art is by BigGoodWolf on FurAffinity! You can see more like it on my personal FA page, but I will use my commissions as background images from time to time UwU!
I will be writing here a lot more often, including a better "About Me" page lol.
This is Nic Weyand, a brand new site by Nic Weyand that's just getting started. Things will be up and running here shortly, but you can subscribe in the meantime if you'd like to stay up to date and receive emails when new content is published!